..the present's just a pleasant inturruption to the past..

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 06:18:08 GMT

i am unhappy. no, miserable. no reason. i dont even kno why i'm writing this at all. i'm missing something. boyfriend..check; friends..check; grades..check; well nothing is right and i just want to go home so badly for more than 24 hrs at a time and more than once every three months. i only got 4 fucking days for christmas. and when i wasnt home over the holidays i was living out of a suitcase and sleeping on a couch. fuck dance. i'm dropping out. maybe instead of getting my doctorate i'll just marry a doctor. i dont even kno what i'm saying..i'm not upset with school. i'm just unhappy thats all. just plain unhappy.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 05:06:56 GMT

i have a problem...i get attached waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too easily. its bad.

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 05:10:27 GMT

why am i on the verge of tears? i really dont understand myself

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 05:17:05 GMT

wellll its my first night in my dorm, yayyyy! lol. feels good to be settled in and not living out of a suitcase...this is my home for the next whole lot of months. o man i cant wait. the weeks been amazing but the choreographer comes tomorrow ugh. i just hope i dont suck lol. i miss everyone so much...please call whenever you can! love you all and good luck to those of you that'll be moving in these next few days!!

much love,
danielley

white houses

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 07:21:36 GMT

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses

...the song still makes me cry

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 15:14:21 GMT

well i'm here in delaware for the longest week of my life lol. last night was the freshmen initiation party and let me tell you it was completely insane. besides the girls on the dance team i knew no one there lol, all i kno is that apparently the basketball team was there and then i million other random guys. o well, heres to college! on the oher hand, i missed toms. i honestly couldnt be more upset about that. i feel like i miss absolutey everything lately. its wierd, i've had such an amazing sumer, but i still feel like i missed so much. i guess you cant have everything. well i'm going to make it a point to make the most of my one week home before school. wow, i really dont wanna leave...

but holy shit was that party fun last night. i'm so split. ugh

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 02:38:47 GMT

well things just keep gettin crazier! this summer has just begun and i can already tell its gonna be insane. for starters, lclg kicks ass. its pretty much the best job ever. i cant wait for more lifeguard parties. and secondly, this war is on...i kno i've been mia for the last atack but i'll be there for the retalliation. you guys are done like dinner. bwahahaha. ok done with the creepy laugh.

cyz lata!

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 01:22:42 GMT

prom, prom night, and jones beach were amazing...i love all you guys, and i love being 18

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 04:59:46 GMT

life is too complicated for words

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 04:53:00 GMT

sometimes life hits you at a funny angle...
things feel funny. i dont kno how to explain it exactly, just funny.

maybe all i need is a nice drunken summer, yea that sounds nice

:/

high school's over, high school's over...

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 05:07:17 GMT

last day...ever. so wierd. we made the best of it tho. i took plenty of pics and team awesome dressed up to match each other again. we were hot. then after school the 5 of us went pool hopping. jeez louise it was a blast. lets see the order was...dave's, craig's, jeremy's, pishi's, justin's, mike flynn's? yea that sounds right. it was amazing. in between we went to wendy's, a and p and saw mikey garvey mike f and matt and they got mad cuz we stole their shit, went to the mall just to buy burritos but i got sunglasses too. yea...crazy, crazy day which mostly consisted of us driving around in my car wearing only our bathing suits. o boy i love you girlies. once we got to mike's we stayed in his pool for a while and then just chilled and watched a movie. and now i'm here tellin you about my last day of high school. jeez, thats ridiculous. well, i'm happy to be moving on. i cant wait for my job to begin and to start up dance team. ahhhh. thank you carmel, for the best four years i could have had, with the best people i ever could have spent it with.

dani

ps. i'll always remember: seagull ball....ahh i love my friends.

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 04:55:44 GMT

i cant even put into words how i feel right now. nothing makes sense anymore. i just hate everything and my head hurts so bad. i'm so upset. i feel like absolute shit and i cant sleep but i feel like i never want to get out of bed again. i hate everything right now. i guess i'll just sit here and cry until i fall asleep. i hate crying after a recital...my stage makeup gets everywhere. i even hate crying right now. my head is not in a good place. shit.

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 04:56:47 GMT

tonight was a good night. after the longest yard which was a really funny movie, i went to the diner with tom and bob and mike l and domenica and we just talked about old times for awhile. it was a lot of fun b/c it was everyone that i never see that i really wish i saw more of. when theres no place to go...the diner is the place. thanks guys, i needed a night of rememberin all the good times. even tho it did lead to a night of wishing things were the way they used to be. o well, a great time overall. goodnight everyone, sweetdreams.

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 04:06:50 GMT

it seems like right now is a major time of change. everything in my life at the moment is moving so fast and i'm just getting carried along with the current. well i was forced to take a moment to think today when my mom came into my room really late to talk about how i dont talk to her. now normally i'd be doing the whole eye-rolling thing where i go o please i'm a moody teenager why would i want to tell you anything ordeal. but she didnt come in with that annoying voice she always uses, this time she came in very sincere with tears in her eyes. it really hurt. and its true. but i'm just so unintersted in life lately that i cant seem to tell her anything. everyday feels like the day before it so when she asks how my day was and i say, "eh it was ok," thats really all i felt about it. shes goin through a lot right now though. a death, a sickness, and then i had to throw in me and my lack of interest in my own life. sitting at awards tonight, for an instant i remembered how i used to be. i used to really care about my life. the old me would have had every award up there. i used to be the kind of person that would be in every club do every community service project available and be one of those names known by teachers. not the me now. i dont care about anything. i go through the motions and i get by with good grades b/c i have the brains for it. but i just dont have the heart for it anymore. i just hope this attitude changes because while the old me had slightly less friends, at least she took hold of the steering wheel in her own life. i guess college will be a real adventure, to see which of me will come out. i just hope that whoever i finally become and whatever i choose to do, that i'll be able to feel it. i dont wanna be a passenger in my own life anymore, its absolutely horrible.

Tue, 24 May 2005 18:46:15 GMT

omg school is almost over! yay! i cant wait for summer!

Sun, 22 May 2005 08:25:24 GMT

wow, i really cant sleep. this sucks.

Thu, 19 May 2005 03:55:49 GMT

ooo boy its so late and i'm putting off a lab thats due tomorrow. fun fun stuff. well six flags today was awesome. it was so great to not hafta wait on any lines. we went on basically every rollercoaster and have quite gangster keychains lol. i didnt kno ash could look so much like a ghost but she never ceases to surprise me. the stupid kingda ka ppl f'd up my shit but o well road trip soon to go on that crazy mf'er!

so today was just a really good day. it was a stress-free, nonthinking, good day. its always good to talk things out but sometimes its good to just step back for a day and go on crazy rollercoasters lol. for a long time now my head has been spinning at a velocity of about 55 mph. so it was really great to just relax and have fun with some funny people.

ok thats it for now, gotta go do my lab...ttfn!

ps. if u happen to run across a pic of me, sam, ash and justine on a log flume ride on the internet just let one of us kno, some creep was takin pics of us. ewww

pps. please post if u think me n mikey look anything alike at all in the slightest. because apparently all of the kids in our lifeguarding course thought we were brother and sister for a while. lol wierd stuff. we ruined it tho. we decided it would have been funny if we sed we were and then just start makin out like crazy at the end of the course in front of em. ha. i woulda laughed.

yOu SpIn Me RiGhT rOuNd BaBy RIGHT ROUND!

Sun, 15 May 2005 05:28:00 GMT

jeez louise...all i can say is hershey park was insane. not the actual hershey park (tho that was fun too!) but actually a hotel about 20 min away. CRAZY NIGHT! loved it all. love you all. cant top that shit. peace.

Wed, 11 May 2005 03:36:42 GMT

and now we're standing face to face..

isnt this world a crazy place..

just when i thought our chance had past..

you go and save the best for last...

</3//<3

Sun, 08 May 2005 23:29:44 GMT

happy birthday to me!

thanks so much to everyone for coming last night! sorry it took forever! love you all!!

Wed, 04 May 2005 02:43:07 GMT

happy bday justine!

hope everyone had a nice day..

Sun, 01 May 2005 01:52:42 GMT

its crazy

there are 24 hours in a day

thats 1440 minutes

and to think, just 3 ruined all 1440

lets hope they dont kill the next 4 years

its this one thing that got me trippin!

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 19:07:07 GMT

ew i hate that song lol, but i just cant get it out of my head!

so i really havent written a whole lot in a while, i guess nothing earthshattering has been happenin. i'm excited about delaware tho! its so great to finally have decided and be done with it. it felt so good to send in my payment last week. i cant wait for dance team to start up.

ap's next week! aaaggghhh! not good my friend not good. i really dont care enough. this time last year i was crazy psycho girl with a million little flashcards and studyin everynight and now i'm simply flipping out b/c i dont kno any thing. oh well whatever, these tests are like the points on whose line is it anyway...they dont count for shit. i'm already goin to college so who cares?? not i.

ok so i have this really great thing that everyone should have. its called a best friend mikey. you simply cannot live without one. i kno i couldnt. they're in stores now and everyone should get one be4 they are completely sold out. hurry people! go!

yea well there you have it, another little insight into my meaningless consumer driven life. i hope you all feel honored.

bye

ps. i wish i was goin to the f*n prom! harumph!

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 20:36:17 GMT

spring break = amazing

love you my ash hole!

so glad to see everyone again!

i kno when ppl see a song they scroll thru, but if u have a sec just try to read a lil..its good sht

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 06:02:25 GMT

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

..i just love that song, there are parts i dont get but one day i'll sit down and do my own lil in-depth analysis lol. well i hope everyone has an amazing spring break, cya next sunday..